i feel that life gives me lessons i'd rather not deal with; but without them i wouldn't be who i am. my guard is always up. it takes a lot to break down my walls. i don't think anyone TRULY knows the real me. i'd rather stay at home with a movie & blanket than go out & inhale everyone else's secondhand pollution. i'm too forgiving sometimes. i've never been one to "fit in", but i was never one to "stand out". i've always been somewhat inbetween. i'm isolated & obscure. my sense of humor is unique & twisted ... & only some understand it. my standards are enormously high, so congratulations if you even come close to meeting them. the mirror is my best friend & my worst enemy. my facade is always bright & misleading. don't let a smile fool you. i'm hard on myself because it helps subside my insecurities. i come off harder than i really am. i'm a fighter ... but i'm a much better lover. welcome friends, to the most amazing show on Earth .....